The temperature went well up into the fifties today, and we managed to get out, although I was plagued with a miserable headache earlier in the day. But by mid-afternoon I was dressed and we went out just to run a few errands; it felt good just to be outside. I didn't even wear my winter jacket, just a light fall jacket, and we even had the car windows open.
When I first got into hospice I set a goal of living till Obama's election, then till the inauguration. Now I'd like to live to see at least the crocuses blooming. I am definitely declining, but very, very slowly, so I think that is a realistic target, and that I'll even get to set a few more beyond that. (Red Sox opening day, maybe?)
Yesterday, before acupuncture, Julie and I went to the bank to arrange things so either she or I can sign my checks (useful if I get too weak to do it myself), and today I arranged to liquidate the retirement account and put it into the bank, so I can draw on it as needed. Amazingly, in these weird financial times, the retirement account continued to gain value. I think--hope--this will give me enough money to live on in the time I have left (I still have my monthly disability check, alimony, and the rent/loan payment check from Jim and Julie). According to the will, anything left will then pass to Julie. I'm trying to make things as simple as possible. I still have to find and pay for a prepaid cremation service.
This little excursion has left me feeling extremely tired, but it's the good kind of tired that means I will sleep well. And I got some interesting calls today--Bernie Carey from the Mass. Association for Mental Health and Joan Kerzner of DMH are coming to visit next month, and Marianne and Bill are going to do a taping with me about movement history in early March. Also, Darby called and thinks she has located an archivist who may be interested in taking my (and Rae's) papers--I'm sure there's lots of gems there, but they definitely need to be sorted through. She's going to have the woman call me directly.
Marty and I are leaving for our weekend in Providence on Friday, early in the afternoon. It's only an hour's drive, so I should have lots of time to rest up before we might go out to dinner with some friends.