I woke up this morning knowing it was going to be a good day. I took a shower, for the first time in a week--it felt so good to be clean! It made me a little tired, but nothing I couldn't handle, so different from just a few days ago when any time I got out of bed I just needed to crawl back in.
Acupuncture always makes me feel good. I have no idea what long-term effects it may have, but I'm hopeful that it will be good for me. Even if it's only the placebo effect, it has value. I always leave the session with a sense of calmness and peace.
We stopped for lunch and by the time we got home I was tired, but not exhausted. So I'll probably spend the rest of the afternoon just resting and taking it easy. I think I'll stay dressed for the rest of the day--I spend so much time in my robe. I love my robe--I actually have two soft fleece robes, one pink and one mint green--but being dressed makes me feel like less of an invalid.
Yesterday was the first time in a long time that I spent the whole day alone, and I felt quite comfortable with it. I was able to get up to make my tea, to have lunch, to do some straightening up. There are times when I can't do those things for myself. I'm going to have to work on my head about how it feels to need more help, not to be able to do things for myself. Right now, that's very difficult emotionally.
Maybe it's time for a nap.